Is there such a thing as “Godstruck”? Because I swear I felt it.
I’m sure everyone, at some point in their lives, experienced being “Starstruck” by famous celebrities they adore or better yet, get “Lovestruck” by their crushes.
Well, this is different. This is what happened…
Yesterday, the 11th of November 2011 (11/11/11), i got a chance to visit The VATICAN with my parents. It was a very sunny day and the wind was a bit chilly. Perfect day for tourists to go around and see the place. After seeing the Vatican Museum, the Sistine Chapel and St. Peter’s Basilica with our tour guide Francesca, We decided to go back inside the basilica to offer some prayers and of course, snap some pictures. Let me remind you that this is the biggest Roman Catholic church in the world. Looking at it from the outside already made me feel closer to God, let alone being inside it.
You probably get the picture…
Since the church was crowded with tourists buzzing around like flies hovering around my ears, I decided to head straight to the Blessed Sacrament where tourists are not allowed to take pictures or even talk. This was a place of serenity, a place exclusively for prayer.
Through the curtains, i stepped inside the little room, scanned it for a vacant kneeler, and then a woman stood up. I found my spot. This was the one near the entrance, at the very back row closest to the aisle. I knelt, made the sign of the cross, and whispered in the most subtle words “In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit”.
Then it happened…I was “Godstruck“. Do you remember the feeling when you see your crush and all of a sudden, all the things you wanted to say get stuck in your throat or you just begin to utter some words that, not even Robert Langdon can decipher? It could be as simple as asking for a piece of paper from that special girl in grade school or hoping to get the answers to a homework from that girl back in high school. The words always get stuck and if they do come out, they never come out right. Well, you can take all those things, multiply it a hundred times and it still wouldn’t come close to what i felt at that very moment.
After making the sign of the cross and reciting the Trinitarian Formula, I just froze. I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t whisper, I couldn’t even think! Everything went blank for awhile and I don’t even know for how long. No thoughts, no feelings, no emotions. Cliche as it may sound, but time really stood still. Then i came to my senses and started praying. But I’d like to think that on this day, i wasn’t praying. This was totally different. I was having a meaningful conversation with God. And of course, it wasn’t one-way. He spoke to me too in ways only He and I would understand. I wish I could describe it but i just can’t.
And as for the feeling? It’s all clear to me now. I was GODSTRUCK!